The Scattered Thoughts of Me

A week from tonight school will be over, and I will hopefully be all packed and ready for my trip to Korea. I’m super-excited, but nervous also. I’ve never been anywhere but the USA and Mexico. Mexico sure is different from the USA (some parts of the USA at least), but Korea... that’s a whole new world. I guess since it’s a thoroughly modern country it’ll be quite westernized, especially in Seoul, but it’ll still be an experience. An adventure perhaps. I’ve been on a few adventures in my life.... I guess some people would say I’m living one right now (although most days I don’t feel like I am). Adventure to me would be hopping in the car right now and driving 4 – 5 hours and sitting on the beach talking to good friends about good stuff until the sun came up. Then spending all day on the beach relaxing and in the ocean swimming, waiting to watch the sun set, then driving back to the big city. Adventure... I want one of those. But they’re always scary to me at first. I don’t know what to expect. I won’t be in control (or even have the feeling of control). I won’t know every road I drive down; I won’t know all the short cuts or places to avoid; I won’t know exactly which lane to be in or how much to slow down for each tope (speed bump). And I like being in control, and knowing (rather, thinking that I know) exactly what’s around the corner, because I’ve been here a thousand times before. An adventure gets me out of routine. It makes me feel defenseless and helpless. And it messes me up for a while. But it almost always leaves me wanting more.

On a side note: 10,000 Maniacs is my new favorite band. Buy “Campfire Songs.” Listen to both discs five hundred times. Then tell me that you agree.